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28th August 2010
vasedelalune @ :
Hi, I'm new here. I've been suffering from binge eating for 6 years now. Last year, I relapsed (gained 15 lbs) and I've been having a harder time recovering. Las time, I took Topamax which helped me recover but I can't afford $400 a month anymore. I was wondering if anyone has heard and tried Relora? Here's some info about it:Stress and Anxiety
There are an estimated 50 million Americans suffering from stress and anxiety. In addition to preventing us from fully enjoying our lives, stress can be the cause of emotional and even physical problems. Clinical studies performed at the Living Longer Institute in Cincinnati, Ohio showed promising results in treating stress with Relora. 345 female subjects followed a two-week regimen in the study, and 89% reported that Relora helped them to relax. Studies carried out at the University of Mississippi found that 78% of subjects reported an increase in relaxation and feelings of well-being. Relora has been shown to help stress-related symptoms such as irritability, restlessness, tense muscles, difficulty concentrating and emotional mood swings.Weight Loss
Clinical studies were also carried out to determine Relora’s effect on weight loss efforts. After two weeks of supplemental Relora, 78% of the test subjects found that it helped prevent stress-related eating. A subsequent study evaluated the effect of Relora on eating habits of subjects who regularly snacked on sweet or salty foods when they felt stressed. Relora curbed sweet-snacking by 75%, and salty-snacking by 50%. This may be explained by studies which found that a two week regimen of Relora significantly increased DHEA and lowered cortisol in stressed-out test subjects, returning their levels of these hormones to normal. (Studies have shown a clear link between cortisol and weight gain. Excess stress can lead to high levels of cortisol, which in turn stimulates appetite.) Adding a supplemental regimen of Relora to a healthy diet and exercise program could make shedding unwanted pounds much easier.Insomnia
Another finding of the clinical trials was that Relora seems to improve sleep, while it does not cause daytime drowsiness in most individuals. 74% of test subjects in clinical trials reported more restful sleep
Read more: http://www.doityourself.com/stry/relora#ixzz0xtm4pfng
It seems like it would be helpful especially since I also suffer from generalized anxiety disorder and insomnia.source
9th August 2010
ashiixelainexx @ :
Okay, so I have been working on this website called "From Fat To Skinny," (It's a webs.com site). It's audience is primarily aimed towards those who suffer from COE (Bunges but can't purge) and then resorts to fasting or sever restrciting after at least a week long episode of binging (Basically my life), and are still overweight because the uncontrollable cycle puts on all the pounds lost from fasting and then some. I was wondering if I wasn't alone in this? If not, PLEASE tell me. I hate this. I can't find a middleground; it always needs to be one of the two extremes.
If anyone wants the link to the site (NOT even close to finished) it's here
a lot of the thinspo is really old school, since i haven't taken the time to save any in FOREVER.
Oh, and if anyone has any links to sites besides blogs, pleassseee send 'em on over!
23rd July 2010
ethereal_frame @ : Newbie Rant.
Highest Weight: 188
Lowest Weight: 168
Current Weight: 182
I hate that I binge. I can feel the urge to do it right now. I've had a good day though and I'm not going to screw it up. It feels like I'm starving, but I know I'm not. The hunger is so severe, and it never really stops. I could eat and eat and eat and it would never be enough to make me full. I'd just get fatter and fatter and hate food more and more.
I'm so disgusted with the whole cycle. I feel fat, I eat more, I feel fatter, and I need to eat more. I wish food was something I could escape from, but it isn't. I have to eat something, but if I eat something I want to eat everything.
Gaining weight back scares me, and now I'm close to where I started. I need to lose it again and continue on with my goals. This summer killed me and now I have to drag around extra fat again.
I hate my body right now. All I can see is the fat and it's literally all I think about. I need it off. Fast.
I'm not going to cave tonight. I will not binge. This hunger is just a feeling, not even a real one. I had my dinner, I'm full. My mind is just screwing with me again. I fucking hate that.
19th December 2009
aprilmc @ :
There is a post below from August 28th regarding a study in Boston testing "whether a noninvasive brain stimulation technique that recently received FDA approval for treatment of depression called transcranial magnetic stimulation (TMS) can improve core symptoms of BED (binge frequency and distress) and lead to beneficial neural and cognitive changes."
I've been participating in this study, and have completed everything except for the one month follow up visit. I am just posting now because, I wanted to give anyone who may have considered checking out the study before, but who was apprehensive, the opportunity to contact me if you have questions from a participants perspective. I will be honest that when I originally saw two males listed as the investigators for the study, I was a little apprehensive. I hate to be judgemental, but it was my natural inclination to feel strange/uncomfortable discussing my issues regarding eating/binge eating with men. Everyone involved in the study though was completely non-judgemental and I felt nothing but support and compassion.
Please feel free to message me with any questions. I wish you all health, happiness and healing.
14th December 2009
smalllstufff @ : Someone stop me!
I've gone 8 days of being super-disciplined about my strict diet of uber-healthy-food-only and less than 1000 calories a day. I've been happier and I feel healthier - I even look a little skinnier.
But right now I am feeling a super-intense craving to binge on sweets because I am having some serious doubts about my relationship. I am emotional, I can't stop thinking and over-analyzing, and I want some sort of comfort. I've already talked to someone about what's bothering me last night - but it's not holding me over! I want to eat a big, gooey 10 million calorie dessert right now. I don't have any sweets in the house right now - but I have to be at work in two hours where my FAVORITE dessert in the whole world is constantly passed under my nose. [[I work in a restaurant as a waitress.]]
I'm scared I'm going to binge because I want it so bad - but I know that if I do, I will screw up everything... all the effort I've made so far, gone. And I'll feel even worse than I already do now.
Please give me support.
11th December 2009
hommedesir @ :
I need help. I cant control my eating, at all. I overeat/binge everyday, and its killing me. I decided to join to seek some support or help from anyone, so if you have any advice or anything. thank you in advance :)
8th December 2009
smalllstufff @ : saying no?
I'm slowly getting a little bit better at managing my feelings and not turning to sweets every time. Or, at least I've been good for the last 3 days.
But another weakness is the trap of eating because you are stuck out with your friends, and they want to stop and get something to eat. It's like, you can't go to a restaurant with them and not eat anything... not that I have enough will power to say no to something delicious-looking on the menu yet if I wanted to.
Anyone have any tips on what's worked for you? It's just too easy for me to say, "Yeah, that's sounds good!" when in the back of my mind I'm screaming, "You're gonna regret this later!"
audrey_falling @ :
i want to start a fast tomorrow.
i am new to all of this so i would really love some support.
6th December 2009
smalllstufff @ : Another newbie
Hello ladies [[and gentlemen, if there are any]]! I just joined live journal and this community to find support for my binge eating.
I'm 21 years old, 5'7" and right now I weigh somewhere between 135-140 pounds [[don't have a scale in my house - I'm scared to get one because it would mean actually seeing this number between my feet]]. I am extremely uncomfortable at my weight and constantly self-conscious about the way I look.
I've been binge eating since somewhere in high school. I don't know what point it actually started, but for as long as I remember I have always had a strong desire to have a beautiful, perfect body... which sounds so superficial and typical, I know, but there's no other way to put it. I'm sure many can relate. But adverse to my desires, I constantly needed to have sweets all the time. It became a habit without me even realizing it. Fast forward 5 or 6 years til now... when I realized that I eat things like chocolate, cookie dough, frosting, cake, and the like every single time I felt even the slightest pang of uneasy emotion - basically every single day. I always felt guilty and disgusting after I did it, but that never stopped me from doing the same thing again the next day. I'm lucky that I am still in what's considered the "normal" weight range and BMI - but I AM unhealthy, and I want to eat healthier, lose weight and be happy with my body. My ultimate goal weight is somewhere around 120 pounds.
Today I am very proud of myself - I have not had any sugary foods today whatsoever. I'm hoping to do the same thing again tomorrow. My plan of attack is to try and wien myself off the sugar first BEFORE I try going on a weight loss diet. I think if I tried to do both at the same time right away, it would be too extreme and I would go back to my old ways too easily. I hope to find inspiration, guidance and support here - and hopefully make a new friend who can relate.
Thank you all!
17th November 2009
kellylafer @ : Thank You!
I just wanted to give everyone a big thank you for the great response on the documentary series that I'm working on! It's very inspiring! I know the issues we're touching on are very sensitive and private and I really appreciate everyone who has stepped up and contacted me. We're still working on it so feel free to e-mail me if you want more information!
14th November 2009
lovemebabie @ :
today is my first day fasting. need encouragement
10th November 2009
kellylafer @ : May Interest You
I'm working on a new documentary series that will focus on women between the ages of 18 and 28 struggling with difficult issues like eating disorders, self harm, and intimacy issues. Let me know if you're interested or if you have any questions! Feel free to message me or e-mail me directly at firstname.lastname@example.org. I'm kinda new to LJ so please be patient with me!
26th October 2009
ashiixelainexx @ : DESPERATE need for help.
Hello, my name is Ashley. I'm trying to initiate a fast-sort-thing. I am a compulsive overeater and today I decided to start taking Hoodia pills and failed miserably at initiating my fast...I'm in desperate need of support, so I'm looking for ana buddies, and some tips. Much appreciated <3
12th October 2009
kellylafer @ : Anyone an Exercise Addict?
I thought this might be something of interest to the members of this forum...
There’s a new show on the CW called "Secrets" that is seeking out women 22-26 who are forced to lead a double life between their professional life and their addictive workout routine. The purpose of the show is to provide these women with an outlet to address this issue so as to receive the help they secretly want and desperately need.
If this sounds like something you would be interested in just go to www.cwsecrets.com to apply.
If anyone has questions, feel free to e-mail me directly at email@example.com.
Hope this finds someone who could really benefit from this show!
11th September 2009
stelb @ : I'm new.
Hi all, I am new here. Just found this place yesterday. I have a really weird eating disorder that is totally messing up my life. I will diet, diet, diet & lose massive amounts of weight. Then I will binge for a month or two & gain it all back. When I binge, I eat more than 20,000 calories/day. When I am dieting, I feel great. But if I go off my diet, even eat a crumb that isn't on my diet, then that will send me into a binge. It is so weird because I can never go out to dinner or normal things because that will put me into a binge. I am like a drug addict with food. Anyway, I hope to meet some friends & support here. I just can't handle this problem on my own anymore
7th September 2009
anu4 @ :
Hello, I'm new here!
So I'm the one who can binge a whole week but I'm not really keen on purging, though lately I've been doing it more. I think it started 3 years ago, when I went to highschool and got to be around all these skinny bitches, who called themselves fat. I was at a normal weight back then, but then my grandfathers both died and I have major family problems, especially with my father, with whom I haven't communicated for about 4 years now? But he still finds ways to hurt me, even though he lives in another city. So, besides all that I have depression and took antidepressants for some time (not strong ones). I have no real friends to be honest and I don't get along very well with my mom, with whom I live right now. I think in March/April everything was going well, I started losing weight because I wanted to look nice on my graduation photos and then, after graduation in June, I have since gained about 22lbs. I look horrible, i struggle with food and eating EVERY FUCKING DAY. It's all going downward, especially now, when I found out my grandmother has non-curable cancer (she and my late grandfather were the ones who raised me mostly, I loved them as my parents and for that reason it hurts so much). To be honest, I eat my emotions, whatever they are - happy, sad, neutral, excited etc - I just eat all the time. I'm tired of it, I want to be cured and I want to enjoy life and have real friends and go out with them to party etc. and not worry about how I don't have anything to wear and everybody will be looking at my fat and I'd feel so uncomfortable. But yeah that's the story.
Sorry it's so long, but I just wanted to write, WHY I have these issues and ED.
So, my stats:
ED: EDNOS with compulsive overeating/binge eating and slightly bulimic tendencies
Feel free to email me :)
28th August 2009
fritz_bidmc @ : Research Study on Binge Eating Disorder in search of participants (Boston, MA)
Dear members of the Stop Binge Eating Live Journal Community,
I am writing to inform you of an ongoing Binge Eating Disorder (BED) research study which is underway at Beth Israel Deaconess Medical Center (http://bidmc.org/
) located in Boston, Massachusetts (google map). Currently we are in the process of recruiting volunteers; if you or someone you know fits the criteria of eligibility and would be interested in participating in the study please contact us at the number below. Compensation is provided for your time as well as some travel expenses. Total compensation for participation in the study would be $1,000.
In this study we are testing whether a noninvasive brain stimulation technique that recently received FDA approval for treatment of depression called transcranial magnetic stimulation (TMS) can improve core symptoms of BED (binge frequency and distress) and lead to beneficial neural and cognitive changes. If you are interested in the applications and history of TMS you can learn more at our lab's website: http://tmslab.org
Over the study, participants receive 10 sessions of TMS, two buffet meal tests, cognitive tasks, and MRI. All the study consists of outpatient visits. Participants receive monetary compensation for participation and parking expenses. The study is fully approved by the IRB of our institution and funded by a generous grant from a private non-profit foundation.
The study is limited to people between 18-50 years old.
Exclusion criteria are:
-Smoking or other history of substance abuse within the last 6 months.
-Prior neurosurgical procedure, or brain damage/disease.
-Personal or family history of seizures, epilepsy or other unexplained loss of consciousness.
-Current diagnosis of a psychiatric or neurological disorder (some medications OK)
-Any metal in the body non-MRI compatible.
Alternatively, if you prefer you can reach us by phone at: (617)-667-0256
Thank you very much for your time and have a wonderful day!
Berenson Allen Center for Non-Invasive Brain Stimulation
(617) 667- 0256
18th August 2009
ifyoustoptoeat @ : NEW GIRL
ive been in treatment for ana/mia before. struggling now...i never stopped wanting to see my ribs, my hips, my shoulders. help! i need to get back on track and stop binging. i hate purging so i dont want to have any reason to do it! ana is the way to go...anyways, feedback is always much appreciated. im pretty much here for an e.d. friend network. thanks for taking the time to read this if you did...
weight: 129-ish lately
14th August 2009
sweet_sarenity @ : Hello
Hi everyone i wonder if anyone can help me?
I am a big binge eater and really need some good advice on how to stop!! :-)
28th July 2009
perfectpinup @ : day 3 on duromine....
ok well all was going well i tell you you really dont feel hungry at all on duromine you have to remember to eat something, but then i had netball tonight and i was running for 50 mins like i normally do every week so it shouldnt be an issue.......but it was..my heart was beating like crazy it hurt, i was boiling with heat i thought i might pass out i couldnt keep running, then i went freezing with goosebu,ps at the same time ...doesnt feel good i pushed and pushed myself i felt really bad & i was scared its never happened before & i know for a fact its cuz of the duromine because its basically "legal" speed & it gets your metabolism going crazy overtime...so i worried about that, im going to see how i get on next week and if its the same i may change positions to something not so strenuous while im on duromine. my heart does tin flutters to occasionally i dont like it ...these are the side effects though.
I have to be patient with this because its only the 3rd day and the 3rd of anything is hard....3rd mile of running...3rd day at school or work....3rd day on a new diet.....3rd days are the hardest you do well to conquer it....enough rambling.
27th July 2009
faithy618 @ : hey
hey im new. can anyone tell me some good ways to distract myself from eating? comment plz...
28th July 2009
perfectpinup @ :
its 1am and i cant get to sleep it must be the duromine it does bring on insomnia i dont think i will take 2 tomorrow....im going to finish up here then read & see what happens....must get homework done tomorrow but feel like going out down the beach maybe. Who knows.
Have a good night & stay strong!
perfectpinup @ :
i want collar bones
i want wrist bones
i want rib bones
i want a gap between my fat thighs
i want to fit my hand around my arm
i want a guy to lift me without a struggle
i want to be so skinny i am drowned in his frame when we hug
i dont want him to look at me with disgust, pity, shame or hate
i want to be skin & bones beneath his touch
i want people to see im skinny skinny skinny & that i deserve a place in this world
im ashamed im as big as i am
no one likes a fat person
i want people to say im too thin
i want people to look at me and like what they see not the disgust they have with seeing whats infront of them
i want my hand to be small upon his
i want to look good in any clothes i get
i dont want an ounce of fat
i want to be the thinnest one for a change
i want to run as light & free as a feather
I WANT TO BE SKINNY.
I WILL DO WHAT IT TAKES.
your saying forget about the past ....but why dont you ...your still so bitter.
27th July 2009
jessigurl_23 @ : hey all
so i started the 28 day plan again cuz i full on binged again last night...
i succeeded finally......
all i had today is 90 calories.
i was under my 100 cal limit so im pleased. i had one jar of baby food 60 cals
and a couple of tea spoons of sugar free jelly would of made up like 3 cals cus the whole pack only has 9 cals.....
thats all for solids
then i had 3 sugar free energy drinks 8 cals each
and water for the rest of the day,
sooo there u have it.
... tomorro will be a better day cuz i made it throu today... day one is always the hardest. hence why i fuked it up yesterday.
oh well ive made peace with that because today is monday and i think its a good place to start a plan.......
hope u lovelies are doing well
ss tt and never give in to the temptation of food cuz ITS NEVER WORTH THE EMOTIONAL TURMOIL remember that next time u want to eat,,,, its just not worth it.
k laters xxxxxxxxx
26th July 2009
jessigurl_23 @ : i hate myself
its a wonder why im complaining when i did this to myself......... i fell off the wagon big time...... in the last few months ive slowly put on 8 kilos.. thats just f ed up.... im doing the 28 day plan and i was successful today but it doesnt change the fact that im a huge fuckup... i feeel so fat and pathetic and disgusting i wish i was dead.
im so sick of feeling thhis way,,,, im so sick of failing and havin no willpower and self control but most of all i hate hate hate the guilt and anger that comes with being anorexic. i look in the mirror and think to myself how can i be anorexic when i look this fat? its fucked in the head.
sory but i just had to vent and just like all u other ppl out there ana is a lonely life and there is never anyone who u can talk to or anyone who understands how u feel. so i needed to vent on here.
any australians lookin for a text buddy comment me k.........
love u girls ur all so inspirational. seriously.